Prayer #1

Dear God. I feel like I'm at my wits end. I'm scared, lonely, hurt and unable to focus. I am out of control and that terrifies me. I ask that you please help me find an employment situation that will be the most beneficial. I put my family into your hands. Help me stay sober. You are the only one who knows what level of sobriety is ideal for me. Please help me maintain it. Amen.

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